Here I am!! You can stop looking now :)

Greetings from the mountainous regions of the center of our illustrious state! Sorry I haven't updated in about a million YEARS. I had a wonderful Sisters trip with Logan and I learned how to put pictures on my blog! A couple firsts for me I had whilst in the lovely land of Sisters, I road a bike on a trail, had my first real (good) bike fall with pretty bruises and everything, and I backpacked up a mountain and camped there! :D That was super fun! The cute picture of Logan and I was taken in a meadow next to a little stream. That picture is Logan reading his magazine about Vietnam and incase anyone is wary of his attire he is wearing a pair of army issue PT shorts (which I swear were designed in 1982 because they're TINY and they've got the bit that goes up in the sides :P) Anyway, great trip, lotsa fun. Logan is doing well also... except that he ate too much at dinner or something and threw up early this morning :( poor guy. But he says he's ok so I'm not TOO worried, I'll just let him sleep in. Again, sorry guys about disappearing for a while there I'm glad you still love me :)

AND NOW! MINE ANNOUNCEMENTS OF CONGRATULATIONS THAT HAVE BEEN MISSED OF LATE!!!

To mine Hayden brother: HAPPY BIRTHDAY! You're 11 dude!!! WOO! ELEVEN STINKIN YEARS!!

To mine Cameron brother: HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! You're 7!!!! OH MY GOSH!!! YOU'RE HUGE!

And to mine Lita sister:

Happy four days until your wedding!

Happy three days until your wedding!!

Happy two days until your wedding!!!

HAPPY YOUR WEDDING IS TOMORROW!! :D :D :D :D (p.s. five is right out)

and in the general direction of mine friends of whom all banded together to show theirn support for mineself and mine blogging there is much rejoicing.... yaaaaaaaaay........

(Did I mention Logan got me the special edition of Monty Python and the Holy Grail?? :D :D :D)

Mynd you, møøse bites Kan be pretty nasti...

Logan says I'm silly

just because I'm wearing a tank top, skirt, jeans, an apron and a cowboy hat. Pfft. Silly my foot.

I got you t shirts! .... darn!

Heavy stuff....

How is it that I end up talking about really important stuff late at night when it's just time to sleep? It's a silly time to talk, people are extra emotional. And sometimes that makes me sad, I hate to hurt someone I love.... But sometimes you need pain I think... If we didn't hurt then how the crap would we be able to know that God can heal us? And how also would we be able to recognize the power of God or His love for us in that no matter what the matter is, whether it's our fault or it happened to us, He is there to help us and make it right and turn bad things into good. I love God, I love how He works. I don't understand it most of the time but I know that even if it involves pain and heartache it will turn out to be good in the end.

"...To console those who mourn in Zion, to give them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; that they may be called trees of righteousness, the planting of the Lord, that He may be glorified..."
Isaiah 61:3

Sort of bored

I get to work a double today :) huzzah, I haven't worked a double in..... Ever I think, at least a long time. In any case I'm a little bored sitting here at my computer, it's not like I don't have things to do I just feel bored and a little disappointed at a certain webcomic. :P Megatokyo, I like reading it and it's usually cool but the author has been a bit moody or something anyway he launched into a three week short comic that makes not that much sense and now he's ended it without explaining a bunch of stuff. I guess that's how it goes sometimes and you just sort of take it as it is but sometimes a little (or a lot) of background makes a story that much more interesting ya know? *sigh* anyway I guess I'll go get dressed and off to work. Hey! I get to go on a trip on Saturday! Yay! Fun stuff :D

and then the NEXT week I get to go to WALLA WALLA!!! :D :D :D hooraaaay!!!

where's Shupe and the RubberBand?

Apparently Ryan Shupe and the RubberBand do not have any full CD's out, just the single of Dream Big. And no one seems to have that :P maybe Logan will have some luck in central Oregon afterall they do seem to have huge tracts of Sobe lemonade that Portland and the surrounding areas apparently lack. Perhaps they've also obtained a copy or two of the song I want, even if they don't I say three cheers for central Oregon! (at least Sisters/Bend area) hip hip... HOORAY! hip hip... HOORAY! hip hip... HOORAY!!! :D

I like this song, it makes me smile

When you cry be sure to dry your eyes,
cause better days are sure to come.
And when you smile be sure to smile wide,
and don't let them know that they have won.
And when you walk, walk with pride,
and don't show the hurt inside,
because the pain will soon be gone.

And when you dream, dream big,
as big as the ocean blue.
Cause when you dream it might come true.
When you dream, dream big.

And when you laugh be sure to laugh out loud,
cause it will carry all your cares away.
And when you see, see the beauty all around and in yourself,
and it will help you feel okay.
And when you pray, pray for strength to help to carry on
when the troubles come your way.

"Dream Big" -Ryan Shupe & The Rubberband

Well he's back :D

Hooray for Logan being HOME!!! Man was I surprised when I got a call the last night of camp from a certain somebody in Germany (hence on his way home) I went outside my cabin and jumped around a bit :) after we hung up I couldn't really sleep because I was so excited. I gave little thought to the fact that if he was already on his way then I probably wouldn't greet him on the airfield. And I didn't, we couldn't get away from camp quick enough but it worked out because he got to come over here on Thursday night :D :D :D so we hung out for the weekend and HOPEFULLY (fingers crossed) I'll be able to work it out so that I can come with him down to Sisters next weekend. That'd be great. I think I'll head to work today and see who's not working and negotiate some shift switching/giving and such. In any case I feel emotionally lighter :) no more worrying when I'll get to see him or talk to him next, at least not for a little while. At the moment if I really REALLY want to see him I only have to drive two and a half hours and I can. :) And most every night I can call HIM, that will be wonderful. I missed not being able to call him and talk or leave a message, having to wait and not being sure of when the next call will come is hard. Fortunately I don't have to now for a few months :D

Oh and by the way, fantastic four is a fun movie. I liked it. And mio gelato down the street is great! :) hooray for ice cream and gelato!!!

ya know what's yummy?

chocolate covered gummi bears :)

home again home again

with a new sparkley hair clip and black shirt, a little sunburnt but doin alright. I don't have to work tomorrow :) that's cool... but working only night shifts this week is :P. Oh well, thems the breaks eh?

I'm not homesick I'm Logansick

I'm in Sisters tonight... sitting in Logan's old room... I miss him a lot... he won't be long now :)



but that doesn't really make it any easier to fall asleep without him down the hall....

some of one of my new favorite songs

...the book of love has music in it
in fact that's where music comes from
some of it's just transcendental
and some of it's just really dumb
but I
I love it when you sing to me
and you
you can sing me anything
the book of love is long and boring
and written long ago
it's full of flowers and heart shaped boxes
and things we're all too young to know
but I
I love it when you give me things
and you
you ought to give me wedding rings...

I want to have my first married dance with Logan to this song, we'll see....

Weird dreams

weird dreams are... weird. Especially when you wake up and think they were real for like, two seconds, then it's just weird... Those kinds of dreams creep me out and after I have them I need to have human interaction before I feel sane again. I also think it's funny when you're dreaming something and then you wake up but you think that the dream is still happening like when you dream you're talking to someone on the phone then you wake up and realize you had your hand to your ear but there was no phone. Last night I dreamed Logan was at the side of my bed and he put out his hand to take mine. I woke myself up when I lifted my hand, I opened my eyes just as I was going to put my hand in his and he wasn't there. It was kind of sad but then I closed my eyes, went back to sleep and he was back :) Not long now and he'll really be back :D yay.

He's ok

I guess he really did just get kicked off. The computer crashed or something *shrug* false alarm I suppose. Sometimes I feel terribly guilty after typing a scared post and then everything turning out to be ok, but not this time I know God doesn't care and I know He's smiling not flipping out because I may have scared people or because I didn't have anything to be scared of in the first place. :D hooray for not feeling bad!!!! Hooray for grace!!! Hooray that my Father in heaven loves me for me and not my emotions!! :) Hooray!

where'd he go?

hm... i was just chatting online with Logan and he just left without saying anything. I hope everything is ok but I have a feeling he was kicked off in a hurry and with him being where he is I can't help but think that it was because he was unexpectedly called to duty. *siiiigh* I cant's see why and how I am able to choose this life except that I believe God gives me more grace than I know. For now would you please say a prayer for my soldier? I know I'll be saying a few until I hear from him again.

Holy Spirit give us peace, help me to let Logan go into your hands. I have no power to hold him here in the first place. I love you, I know Logan loves you and I just want him to be safe. If he was called away to fight somewhere tonight please help him to be focused and accurate may his life be protected and his enemies scattered. God, Help him to know that I am ok with him having to leave and that you're giving me the strength of heart to deal with these surprises. Thank you Father.
Amen

a warning

Hayden reminded me yesterday to be careful today. If I see anyone hiding behind cereal boxes or saying, "I'm a witch!" I should not be scared because it's just Cherise but I should be on the look out nonetheless. He says she's sneaky.... I believe him.

ONE YEAR

It is officially one year (twelve months :D :D :D) until Logan and I get all dressed up and our families and friends get together and we all PARTY!!! Hooray for getting married!! :D

grumble grumble gurgle roar

I'm mad... :( I didn't get my homework done when I wanted to... now I'm gonna be stressed out all weekend. This sucks... why don't I focus when I should? grrrrrr... i'm hungry too, and tired, and whiny... I wish today was only a karate day :P I just wanna go punch and kick and yell... and I want school to be done for the summer, yes that would be a good one too.

bluegrass growing in my room :)

I got a few new CDs, which is always fun, but I especially like these. I was browsing around the obscure corner of music at Target. The corner full of Irish jigs, 70's hits, country and gospel music :) I found a CD called "Bluegrass Revival" I thought it looked cool so I showed it to Dad and recognized most of the songs as hymns that he grew up singing. So I bought it, it was only about $10 for 3 CDs :) yay good deals.

So I've been listening to pretty much nothing but bluegrass hymns for the past few days and I like it. It's soothing to me, I dunno why. Like I told Jasmine it's like coming home in a way, even though I haven't gone anywhere. I feel happy when I listen to it, it's like a security blanket. It makes me think of Logan and be happy, I don't miss him so so much when I listen to my bluegrass :) I love the sound of the fiddle and mandolin :D it's real music by real musicians who know how to play their instruments. I like the good ol' hymns jazzed up a bit with some fun country music :) real country, not pop or rock country.

And today I went out and bought a cowboy hat :)
yeehaw

leeeeeetteeeeeers, wheeeere aaaaare yooooooou?

good news: I got a letter from Logan today, YAY!!!

not-so-good-but-certainly-not-end-of-the-world news: it's from the May 15th, he wrote and sent many pages of letter before that but I don't have them.

sad news: Logan's letter for Cameron is among those M.I.A.

WHERE ARE THOSE LETTERS?!?

Show me the croutons

Working at a restaurant is fun. My server friend Aaron is cool, whenever he serves in the bar we team up on rolling silverware :). He thinks it's bad luck to get married before you're old enough to legally drink the champange toast at your wedding, I think he's silly. Yesterday I was tellling him how I knew someone who got married at 17 and he said that was just like what I'm gonna do I protested saying by the time I get married I'll be 20 that's three years older! To which he replied, "Three baby years". I suppose he's right in a way, in any case it made me think of Cherise coz she called us babies.
Customers can be really funny or just plain crazy sometimes. I had a guy ordering food to-go about a month ago who tried to get a mudslide. When I tried to explain to him that we're not allowed to sell alcohol on carside (for what I thought were obvious reasons) he asked me, "Well, if I bring my ID can I get one?". Tonight I was upselling a couple appetizers to a lady on the phone we're supposed to suggest a couple specific ones so I asked her, "Would you like to start off your meal with an appetizer sampler or an order of onion peels?" and she asked, "Are they free?" What do you mean are they free??? Why the crap would we give you food for no good reason? silly lady. The best customer quote tonight was some older guy I was directing to the bathroom, as he passed me he said, "Excuse me, I have to go put out a small forest fire". I laughed a lot. :) But at the same time I was kinda grossed out and confused. Why did that man feel that he needed to make comment to a perfect stranger, a young female stranger who really did not need to know nor want to think about what he was going to do in the bathroom. :P ew.

Ok that was messed up, I just opened a crouton package from Wendy's and there were 3 and a half croutons in the package. What the crap??? Where are the rest of my croutons?