heh heh... false alarm

hokay... so.

I was mistaken about what I needed to bring to drawing class, as it turns out I only needed to bring in pictures of animal skeletons and muscle systems from the internet or books. So I was actually ahead of the game with my five composite animal skeletons which I was freaking out about this morning because I thought I had less than half of what I needed. Man was that a big relief. Anyway, Jenn you have nothing to be worried about :) drawing class is just fine. Oh and Lita, I have a couple of ideas that I will scan in, this should be fun :D :D :D

loves to everyone!

does ANYBODY have a dollar???

people PEOPLE I am in need of your generous assistance! If anyone has an extra dollar and a love for lemonade I have a proposal for you. If you simply make your way to Walla Walla, Washington there is a young woman there, you will know her for her curly hair, lemonade in hand and unfortunate lack of a dollar bill. A dollar in change would be gladly accepted but a crisp fancily flat bill will work wonders as well. You will find this sad sad young woman in the library... should you find more than one library in the Wallas don't lose heart! Keep searching! She needs chocolate! Please people! Dig deep in your hearts for compassion and love and deep into your wallets for a dollar! It isn't a donation, it's a trade! There is no work for you, she has already put the money into the machine and everything! All you need to do is present the dollar to her and she'll happily and triumphantly present the lemonade to you. So answer the call! Be on your way! Be it by bus, train, plane, foot or pack mule may you fly... that is, go fast... and relieve her of the delicious however cursed lemonade so she can get some chocolate like she really wanted before the lemonade machine ate her dollar which was stupid because she was just testing it to make sure it was good because the chocolate machine wasn't taking it.

Thank you all and goodnight.

This is nuts

Drawing class is insane :P On Monday I have to bring in fourteen drawings, first of all I need to make up seven composite animals combining at least three real ones, then I need to sketch out skeletal and muscular diagrams of each :P APPARENTLY zoobooks are great for this. I say this is crazy and I'm going nuts, I don't even have seven ideas for animals let alone drawings of their skeletons and muscle structure! Bugs are one thing, animals? :P I know as soon as I have my animal it won't be horrible and having a sketch of it's skeleton and muscles will probably be an effective tool but... *whine* I don't want to draw SEVEN of them :P :P :P stupid intermediate drawing class.... *sigh* my best idea of an animal so far is a cat with horns and big tiger paws. Other than that a snake/fish/lizard is my best bet.

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY!!

YAY LITA'S BIRTHDAY!!! I think I have pictures too... let me see...
I DO!

Here is our friend party at the beach :D


and here is Lita in a van :)


and HERE AGAIN!! :D with the uncles and the Vieve (vee-vee) :D so cute! well... Cam's face is a little... but Lita looks GREAT! as always eh?



Happy happy happy day Lita friend! We love you!!

This is not easy

Not being motivated sucks. I've gotten into the bad habit of just waiting around for Logan to call or write. I don't really want to do anything else. A lot of the time I fall into that horrible cycle of being down because of circumstances and as a result slacking on things then feeling bad for slacking which just enhances the down feeling and then I feel worse and days go by without me doing much in the way of functional homework or housework... and I don't know how to dig myself out... I tend to swing from feeling sad because I haven't heard from Logan in x amount of days or gotten more than 2 or 3 sentence emails because he doesn't get much time on the computer to feeling spoiled because he gets to call or write at all. It seems like everything people say to try and help makes me feel worse because a lot of it (mainly at work) is the "look at the bright side" approach and as bad as it sounds there are many days that I just want to yell back in their face that I don't WANT to look at the "bright side". I don't care how much he gets to call or write, he's gone. And I don't care for how long, if you're husband is far away and you can't see him it's hard. I don't want to compare my situation with others', I don't want to feel so sluggish and sad, I don't want to randomly burst into tears, I want to be stable. I want to be grounded and at least semi-level headed. I know I'm an emotional person naturally, I'm not expecting to change who I am.... I just want to be stronger so that I can be more of a support to my husband and less of a burden to my friends and family who care about Logan and I.

Last Sunday in church I cried during worship because one of the men (I think he's the leader of one or more prayer teams) got onstage and shared a word about how God is changing us to be more like him and he said God is making us good. That touched my heart because there are a lot of days I think that I am a bad wife, or a bad employee or student or army wife or whatever. But when Troy said what he did I heard God telling me that I was good, and it's not in the sense that I have it all under control or I know how to do everything and am totally comfortable in the role that I have right now, more so that my heart is good, I know I'm in His hands but what is hard right now is resting in His hands. I haven't figured that one out yet, but I will. At least now I know what I'm not doing so that I can make an effort to change.

FINALLY!

NOW, on the computers at work and on my little receipts it says "ALYSSA G" oh yeah :) that's right, Alyssa G :D Not algae, Alyssa G.

... I was going to say something else... but... I think it flew away... or I have mud on me... I dunno...

Oh yeah! 132 wet sheep! that's what my dad-in-law shore the other day. He's a shearer, from New Zealand, and pretty much the BEST dad-in-law EVER around ANYWHERE! I LOVE MY IN-LAWS!! :D :D :D

My husband is a genius

hokay, so, I was originally only signed up for my color theory class but Logan suggested I try a drawing class, which I had been a bit timid to try because I doubt my skills. Anyway, I took the advice of my signed up for a class and I'm a bit nervous about it because it's an intermediate class and I've never even had a beginning class. Anyway we jumped right into assignments and I'm pretty jazzed about this first one. We have to make a bug from three others. I put together the legs of a stick bug, the body of a beetle and the face of an apple blossom weevil. The scan is a bit dirty and this is only my first actual drawing of it. I don't know what I'm going to call it though... I also have to make up a biological background. I'm thinking I'll say it's from New Zealand because I can attribute any really weird things I think of to how remote the islands are and how there are places that no one has even been to there, that's where my bug is from. :)

on a serious note...

I miss my Logan. He hasn't even been gone that long, and I've gotten to hear from him quite a bit considering the circumstances. I think one of the things that makes it hard even though I get to hear from him and talk to him (besides that he's not here with me) is that I never really know when or if I'll get to be in contact with him until he comes home (nevermind that I don't even know for sure when that will be). It's the uncertainty and the complete lack of control and being so in the dark about him. I know he's doing pretty good, I don't know where he is or what he's doing but he says he misses me and he loves me and that he's ok... *sigh* and that's what keeps me going. :) I love him, even if I couldn't hear from him I know I'd keep going it would just be incredible hard. It's tough to explain how it feels, emotionally it's sort of like a cross between a rollercoaster and a cross country race... there are highs and lows and it feels long even though it's not THAT long... but it is.

BUT I know that God is with us, He is good and He's also the only reason that I get through any of this, yay God.