home again home again

with a new sparkley hair clip and black shirt, a little sunburnt but doin alright. I don't have to work tomorrow :) that's cool... but working only night shifts this week is :P. Oh well, thems the breaks eh?

I'm not homesick I'm Logansick

I'm in Sisters tonight... sitting in Logan's old room... I miss him a lot... he won't be long now :)



but that doesn't really make it any easier to fall asleep without him down the hall....

some of one of my new favorite songs

...the book of love has music in it
in fact that's where music comes from
some of it's just transcendental
and some of it's just really dumb
but I
I love it when you sing to me
and you
you can sing me anything
the book of love is long and boring
and written long ago
it's full of flowers and heart shaped boxes
and things we're all too young to know
but I
I love it when you give me things
and you
you ought to give me wedding rings...

I want to have my first married dance with Logan to this song, we'll see....

Weird dreams

weird dreams are... weird. Especially when you wake up and think they were real for like, two seconds, then it's just weird... Those kinds of dreams creep me out and after I have them I need to have human interaction before I feel sane again. I also think it's funny when you're dreaming something and then you wake up but you think that the dream is still happening like when you dream you're talking to someone on the phone then you wake up and realize you had your hand to your ear but there was no phone. Last night I dreamed Logan was at the side of my bed and he put out his hand to take mine. I woke myself up when I lifted my hand, I opened my eyes just as I was going to put my hand in his and he wasn't there. It was kind of sad but then I closed my eyes, went back to sleep and he was back :) Not long now and he'll really be back :D yay.

He's ok

I guess he really did just get kicked off. The computer crashed or something *shrug* false alarm I suppose. Sometimes I feel terribly guilty after typing a scared post and then everything turning out to be ok, but not this time I know God doesn't care and I know He's smiling not flipping out because I may have scared people or because I didn't have anything to be scared of in the first place. :D hooray for not feeling bad!!!! Hooray for grace!!! Hooray that my Father in heaven loves me for me and not my emotions!! :) Hooray!

where'd he go?

hm... i was just chatting online with Logan and he just left without saying anything. I hope everything is ok but I have a feeling he was kicked off in a hurry and with him being where he is I can't help but think that it was because he was unexpectedly called to duty. *siiiigh* I cant's see why and how I am able to choose this life except that I believe God gives me more grace than I know. For now would you please say a prayer for my soldier? I know I'll be saying a few until I hear from him again.

Holy Spirit give us peace, help me to let Logan go into your hands. I have no power to hold him here in the first place. I love you, I know Logan loves you and I just want him to be safe. If he was called away to fight somewhere tonight please help him to be focused and accurate may his life be protected and his enemies scattered. God, Help him to know that I am ok with him having to leave and that you're giving me the strength of heart to deal with these surprises. Thank you Father.
Amen

a warning

Hayden reminded me yesterday to be careful today. If I see anyone hiding behind cereal boxes or saying, "I'm a witch!" I should not be scared because it's just Cherise but I should be on the look out nonetheless. He says she's sneaky.... I believe him.

ONE YEAR

It is officially one year (twelve months :D :D :D) until Logan and I get all dressed up and our families and friends get together and we all PARTY!!! Hooray for getting married!! :D

grumble grumble gurgle roar

I'm mad... :( I didn't get my homework done when I wanted to... now I'm gonna be stressed out all weekend. This sucks... why don't I focus when I should? grrrrrr... i'm hungry too, and tired, and whiny... I wish today was only a karate day :P I just wanna go punch and kick and yell... and I want school to be done for the summer, yes that would be a good one too.

bluegrass growing in my room :)

I got a few new CDs, which is always fun, but I especially like these. I was browsing around the obscure corner of music at Target. The corner full of Irish jigs, 70's hits, country and gospel music :) I found a CD called "Bluegrass Revival" I thought it looked cool so I showed it to Dad and recognized most of the songs as hymns that he grew up singing. So I bought it, it was only about $10 for 3 CDs :) yay good deals.

So I've been listening to pretty much nothing but bluegrass hymns for the past few days and I like it. It's soothing to me, I dunno why. Like I told Jasmine it's like coming home in a way, even though I haven't gone anywhere. I feel happy when I listen to it, it's like a security blanket. It makes me think of Logan and be happy, I don't miss him so so much when I listen to my bluegrass :) I love the sound of the fiddle and mandolin :D it's real music by real musicians who know how to play their instruments. I like the good ol' hymns jazzed up a bit with some fun country music :) real country, not pop or rock country.

And today I went out and bought a cowboy hat :)
yeehaw